Sunday morning i wake up a little before seven. Now i'm not a spring from bed at full throttle kind of guy. i'm more of an ooze downstairs, osmosip half a coffee pot while reading blogs till i'm ready to ease her up to all ahead half-full. So, somewhere around seven thirty i realize i've goofed off too long and now it's all ahead full or we won't make it as a family to church by nine-fifteen.
That's when the discouragement hits. No one wants to get up for church. i pretty much have to drag three quarters of my family, of which i represent a quarter, to congregate with fellow believers. As the spiritual head of my household i see this as my duty. But since it's been this way for so long, i begin to wonder if maybe i'm doing something wrong. Church isn't a duty, it's a gift. It's a reunion. It's a redirecting of our priorities which have a tendency to reset to factory standard, that being our own lovely image in the slot labeled, "Most important person in the universe." Now if no one in my family is getting this, if they see church as a drag and a burden then i'm not leading, i'm driving. And while i might be a somewhat successful mule driver, wouldn't it be great if i could get the team to pull for once?
Told you i was a frustrated idealist.
And then there's the practical. My wife, Mynnie, works six days a week. Her body is habitually wracked with pain. She would really, REALLY appreciate a day to sleep in. So, do i just take the Ballyhoo Gang and let her rest? Think of all the writing i could get done. Heck, i just wrote this blog in the time i was supposed to be in the shower. i have to write next week's service. There's the irony. The worship leader for next week is skipping this week's service in order to have time and rest to write next week's service. Shouldn't entering into the presence of God the Almighty with my brothers and sisters give me rest and inspiration?
Guilt is the wrong reason to go to church. The desire to be washed free of guilt is a great reason to go to church. Sloth is a lousy reason not to go to church. To be encouraged is a great reason to go to church. These are things i learned in church.
But it sure is hard to get up.